Your life is happening now
How often do you wait? Wait in line, wait for a package to be delivered, wait for a new relationship, wait for a relationship to get better, wait for your body to heal, wait to feel good… just how much of your life do you spend waiting? If you do a thorough self-analysis you might surprisingly discover that you spend most of your life waiting. Waiting for things to get better, waiting for them to be different, waiting until you are clearer, waiting until things open up, waiting, waiting, waiting.
Why do we wait? To the mind there appears to be this mysterious future where everything arrives that we have been waiting for and then abracadabra we stop waiting and live. We all know it doesn’t actually work that way, but that doesn’t stop us from living that way anyway. Crazy I know. Another way to say waiting is to use the word postponement. When we wait we postpone life. Why would you postpone your life? Perhaps you think you can’t have what you want now or you think its not possible or available. You might think that what you want isn’t here or isn’t incompatible with what is here. There is also the possibility that you don’t really want what you think you want or that you think you aren’t ready for it.
The next question is do you even know what you are waiting for? We often think that we are waiting for the thing to arrive. The package, the relationship, the house, the healing of our body, the healing of our trauma, but we are not waiting for those things really. What we are waiting for is the feeling that those things give us. Get that. It is not the thing or result, it is the feeling that the thing/result permissions us to feel. If you get this you will instantly see that there is never again a reason to create waiting or postponement for yourself.
See the entire gestalt of life that you desire can be experienced now in this moment. I know you think you want the picture, but the moment the picture arrives in the next it will change again. The picture is not stable. It is ever changing. It is a temporary illusion of movement and energy configurations made up of gives, takes and energy exchanges. None of them static. What is stable, non-changing and eternal is you, and you are in charge of you. You is under your control. You are the decider, the chooser of you. You are the seat of all of your waitings and non-waitings, living and not livings, you.
CHOOSING LIFE NOW
Life happens through you
You might wonder what it takes to choose life now rather than wait for life to happen in a future moment. Really all it takes is for you to see that your life is happening right now. Perhaps not all the things you think you want are in your current view, but that in no way stops, prevents, interferes or slows down what is here. This also in no way negates that there may be things that want to shift in the appearance of your life. Often simply in the noticing of what is things move and reconfigure themselves into new configurations.
One of the most fundamental aspects to keep in the front view mirror is that all of the changing that may be occurring in the picture of life that you see in front of you is reflecting you. Its reflecting your perspectives. Everything that you look out at really is just an external representation of you. You masked as a multitude of infinite forms constantly fluxing, changing and shifting in response to you. You are not the forms themselves, but the architecture of your perspectives builds the representations that appear. In this way you can use what you see as information about your state of being, what you are aligning with and attracting to the canvas of your life.
These reflections are valuable as they can show you your impossibility beliefs, your perceived cant’s, and also quite clearly what you want and don’t want. What you actually want is what you will see in the reflection of the appearance. What you think you want but don’t really want you won’t see appear even if its there. In this way you will be able to tell where you are full of shit about waiting or being ready or not ready for what you think you want. I also invite you to play with replacing the words ready/not ready with the words want now/don’t want now. In this way you can more clearly see that you are the one in the driver’s seat of your choosing and can instantly stop waiting if you so choose.
Remember what we want is to feel amazing and allow life to flow through. From this flow we serve, we contribute, we give to life. This is the fuel of creation. Our state of being paints the picture and that state of your being is your one and only true responsibility, your one and only true choosing. No matter what appearance appears right now on the canvas of your life start to see how your view and feeling state of it changes it. Be bold enough to see the beauty, love and joy in all, that is if it excites you to do so and if that is how you want to experience life. Don’t wait for the picture to change first. Don’t wait for your body to heal, to heal your trauma, for all the money, or the relationship to arrive. Feel amazing no matter the appearance.
Life doesn’t happen to you, as you aren’t the appearance. Instead life happens through you, through your awareness of it. There isn’t a destination. You don’t arrive. You are. That is it. Stop trying to get somewhere else by waiting for something to arrive. Just be, already here, already perfect, already love, now.
Dr. Amanda Love