Depolarizing our perspectives
Most people are familiar with charge. Charge is polarization or activation in a particular perspective or way of thinking about an experience. People deal with charge in different ways. Some people get reactive and justify or defend their perspective, while others withdraw, become apathetic or move away from their experience. Whether or not a person chooses to react or withdrawal, the charge remains unresolved in their system. Unresolved charge perpetuates tension, irritation, restlessness and disconnection.
Charge occurs because we have certain beliefs, perspectives and preferences about our experiences. When our preferences or perspectives of an experience don’t match with what is actually occurring, we build up charge or resistance. Another way to say this is that when we don’t want to accept what is occurring, because we want something else other than what is revealing itself to be happening, we create resistance. Resistance is our attempt to not fully feel what is actually happening because its doesn’t feel good to us and it doesn’t align with what it is we think we want.
Charge creates the experience of disruption to our sense of stable, rested beingness. This means that it creates disruption in our capacity to be present and be of service in a way that supports others and supports interconnectedness. So frequently people say that their desire is to be centered, unswayed, and rested in themselves no matter what is occurring. Yet most people allow themselves to get pulled out of center by their very own perspectives and preferences. There is nothing wrong with this, it’s simple that it creates an experience of being caught up in one’s own thoughts, rather than present to what is.
In general I find that most people aren’t really aware of themselves in such a way to notice how they are creating their own experience of loss of centeredness or stability in self. They don’t see that how they perceive an experience is what creates resistance, not the actual experience itself. They also don’t want to feel how what is showing up is undesired or undesirable. This creates the postponement of change in one’s life because when we are unwilling to feel what is, and that it is undesirable, then we don’t have the fuel to move on from our perspective and create the changes we desire in our state of being. This keeps us in mental loops, which come with the feeling that we are stuck or can’t move on.
FINDING YOUR WAY THROUGH
Death of your dreams
In order to resolve the charge it typically means that you must die to something. That something is usually an idea, hope or desire you had about how an experience in your life, or life in general, would go or turn out. This is often experienced as the death of a dream(s). It is also referenced in spiritual circles as ego death, which is death of the individual purpose driven life. As unappealing as this may sound, and as contradictory as it may seem to the self-empowerment movement, it is the portal to peace. It is how you come to resolution, and become once again available to what is rather than what you’d hope was.
It makes total and complete sense that we don’t want to feel death. Death tends to not feel good to most of us so we move away from the experience of it. We are not so willing to just plunge into death, so instead resistance to what is, is created. We may find ourselves trying to tell ourselves we are ok with whatever is, but underneath it all we really aren’t. We know we aren’t because we don’t feel absolute, total peace and resolve. Rather we feel tense, but don’t know why. We feel disconnected, but can’t figure out it logically. We try to move forward, but feel we don’t know how. Life seems to not be opening up for us because we aren’t opening into the death that needs to occur before rebirth can find its way through.
By going into the portal of death you come to experience true surrender. Surrender of your insistences, surrender to seeing your preferences being played out in the world, surrender to trying so hard to make things happen in a particular way, and you find yourself in a state of openness. Open receptivity is our natural state of being minus all of the personal preferences and desires we create along the way of this human journey. You become available to and for life, rather than to and for your own agendas, and the sense of untethered-ness to your own preferences is liberating. To the person that you believe yourself to be this seems stupid and devastating, and yet only once you go through the portal of death of your dreams can you discover the freedom that lives here. The freedom to simply be present with what is here, to be an open vessel of energy and information to give to life, to others and to other aspects of creation. This is the only true fulfillment. All else is only temporary gratification.
To resolve charge is to be at peace and to be stably rested in yourself no matter what is occurring. As you die to what you think you want and open to what is, you become harmony. Though becoming harmony you share that frequency with all that you interact with in this world. All then gets the opportunity to see, feel and find harmony within itself. This is 100% within your capacity and ability. It takes only the willingness to move towards what actually is and let it crack you open in whatever ways it does. The heart then finds its expression and is your lived experience.
Dr. Amanda Love