The matrix of creation
We all have patterns that we play out. Patterns are strategies and ways of being that we’ve learned throughout our life in order to function and survive as a human being. Patterns are not bad or good, they are simply what we’ve learned. I’d say the majority of the population is not even aware that they operate utilizing learned patterns, but rather they believe that they are their patterns. The bigger gestalt of our patterns make up our personality, which is often how we view ourselves or how others view us. Without any patterns we would simply be what we are, which is pure awareness or love-light without conditioning. Love-light is the substratum for all patterns or conditions to arise up out of. There can be an intuitive knowing of this or a felt sense of what we are, yet largely most of us are identified as our personalities, aka as our patterns.
It is rare for someone to completely see through the patterns that are present in themselves or in another, and to recognize what might be called the true Self or the love-light that is the essence. However when true Self is glimpsed or seen by self or by other self, the effect we experience is bliss, joy, rapture or an opening into love because that is our natural state. This direct experience or knowing of the Self is what spiritual seekers often aim to achieve through meditation and through other various healing practices.
Being without patterns allows us to taste, see, and remember ourselves, and to experience our boundless or free state. This is why so many seekers aim to un-condition themselves from the learning they have learned, from the personality they’ve adopted and from the bound configurations of energy that seem to interfere with their knowing or seeing of themselves. Again patterns are not good or bad, they simply are, and they provide or lay the template for the experiences we have of life and for the ways in which we perceive life to be.
Ultimately what patterns do, is distort the light from its pure essence and allow it to configure into different expressions, which gives us the infinite myriad of forms and experiences throughout this universe. Patterns are what we call creation. You can see the organization of patterns inside of any form, which allow it to express as it does. What is pivotal to know is that you are not the pattern (ie. the distortion that light takes on), but rather that you are the light. You are a priori to the pattern, the “Patterner” itself.
PURPOSE OF PATTERNS
Understanding relevance & readiness to shift
All patterns serve a purpose. They all have relevance, which is why they exist. If they didn’t serve you or serve the creator (which is you), they would not be. Patterns seem to have a developmental life span. Some patterns will exist over the course of your entire human lifespan, or start previous to it or go beyond it, if the patterns are foundational to why it is you exist or the lessons you came here to learn/share. Other patterns will run their course and you will stop finding benefit in them and thus extinguish them from your distortion/pattern make up.
As people are on a their seeking journey they often desire to shift up some of their patterns because they don’t like the experiences that they offer. Perhaps you have a pattern that you feel blocks you from something you want to experience, which has created a hunger in you to dismantle that patterning within your energetic matrix. That hunger becomes the energy source for you to investigate, see through and to be ready to dismantle the pattern. Sometimes we feel done with a pattern, but it isn’t done with us. Meaning we want to resolve something inside of us, but their is still learning or relevance in us experiencing/sharing the effects of that pattern. People frequently feel frustration around this process as they want their experience to be different than it is and yet it persists. If a pattern persists it is because you continue to find benefit in it. You may or may not be aware of what that benefit is, but it is a worthwhile inner investigation to find out. There are also situations where there is a larger benefit of the pattern remaining, which you can’t currently see from the perspective from which you are viewing. Sometimes you can zoom your awareness out to see from a larger perspective and at other times the veiling of knowing why the pattern continues to exist is part of the learning for you.
As much as anything can be accelerated or slowed down, which are both aspects of the illusion we call time, there can be an amplification of readiness in the system to move through and beyond a pattern. I find that frequently our readiness and the penetrating through of a pattern happens in layers that work up to a final resolution. When we are in the layers, sometimes rather than seeing progress inside of them, we view failure that we haven’t reached complete resolution. I mention this in case you find yourself feeling like you have worked a pattern “forever” and haven’t found resolution of it yet. First of all this human lifespan is incredibly short so its unlikely that you have worked it “forever”, but only what maybe seems like forever to you. Two, its ok if the patten isn’t resolved yet. If you simply permission that for yourself, I can promise you that you will resolve the pattern with much more ease and grace than you perhaps knew possible.
In summary know that you are playing out patterns, but that you are not the pattern itself. Patterns serve a purpose and function, which is why they exist. Patterns can absolutely be resolved by you and through you once their relevance for your life theme, experience, learning and sharing has ran its course. Know that the interplay of light and form is the play of creator and creation expressing infinite expressions, and try not to take your experience too seriously.
Dr. Amanda Love